I have officially passed the one month mark here in Charleston. Internship at Charleston Magazine is going smoothly (but painstakingly slow…), my work will be featured in the August and September editions, so that’s exciting..!
My server job at Another Broken Egg is sttill exhausting and even more frustrating (Working in the food and bev industry has definitely given me a new perspective… never again will I give a waiter or waitress a hard time…)
In the meantime, I’ve had time to explore some of Charleston on my own and I have tasted delicious cupcakes and cookies, wandered the streets, snapping pictures here and there, and trying not to drown in my own sweat.
The other night, while walking around with pals, we came across a colorful wall and decided to have an impromptu photoshoot that reminded me of the “Good Old Days”, romping around my hometown with my friends taking pictures of everyone doing silly things and having fun… It was nice to feel those carefree feelings again
Time is flying by, but at the same time it’s crawling… somehow it seems it’s always passing that way. In a week I’ll fly to D.C. to visit my sister and spend time with my parents, and I think it will be nice to get a change of scenery. My sister and I have been plotting all of the places we plan to eat (including virtually all of the donut shops in D.C.), so whoever may be reading this can look forward to those photos…
So I guess sometimes my photos end up saying more about my state of mind than anything else.
There is so much light in my life right now. I’m living in Charleston, South Carolina, enjoying sunshine and everything wonderful summer brings (including my birthday ), I’m working at Charleston Magazine where I have started getting scheduled to go out on some shoots (after several boring days in the office) and I’m well on my way to being a published photographer. I have a nice (but exhausting) part time job working at a local breakfast place, and I get to spend at least a few hours every single day with my girlfriend which is really nice after a year of long distance.
I’ve got a lot going for me to be honest - So why does it feel like the future is looming ahead of me like a dark storm cloud on the horizon? I feel like at the end of this summer I’m going to head into my last year of school and everything is going to take off at a sprint. I need to get a lot of things figured out in a short amount of time and I don’t even know where to begin.
I have no idea where I will be a year from now and that’s scary, but the fact that I don’t even know where I want to be is terrifying.
I feel like life is a game, and if you can see exactly how the game is going to play out, predict every move, and see the final outcome, it’s extremely boring and feels like a waste of time. However, to much spontaneity and uncertainty and you don’t know how to play the game, what moves to make, and what the end goal is. You end up making mistakes because you don’t know what the goal is and in the end, you waste just as much time.
I know it’s not abnormal to feel lost and confused as a soon-to-be college graduate, but heading into the field that I’m pursuing, you have to have a good bit of confidence and certainty, and I don’t have that right now.
I need to get back behind my camera again. I need to figure out what my goals are and where I want to be…
I’m going to do my best to be more consistent here. I need a place to post my work openly, with or without context, and with as many or as little photos as I want. I hope that this will allow me to continue to share my work with the world and feel like I’m still growing as a photographer…
So I have officially finished my third year at SCAD… The next step is Senior Year and I can’t believe I’m already staring at my final year of school. The past few months of classes have been a whirlwind, and while I haven’t taken as many photos as I would like, I’ve done a lot of personal learning and growing, and I think that’s exactly what I needed. Shooting some personal work (not for class) has been a relief and a nice step away from the critiques. It has allowed me to explore what exactly my “aesthetic” or “style” is and have fun without overthinking things.
Meanwhile, I’ve been in the process of moving on to the next step in-between school years. Every summer I can feel myself becoming more and more independent and this time I won’t be returning home at all. I’m packing up all of my belongings and driving up to Charleston for a 3 month internship with Charleston Magazine. I’ll be living with my girlfriend, (potentially) taking pictures that will be published in a magazine (or two..!), and getting a part time job. It’s going to be an adjustment, but I hope that it will allow me to experience a little bit of what I do or do not want to do after graduation and give me a better idea of where I’m going with my life…!
I’m ready for some change, a challenge, and something that’s going to push me out of my comfort zone a little bit. I’m excited for the second half of 2017 and all of the excitement that is to come.
Wish me luck! And Enjoy some of the miscellaneous work I’ve done between now and January!
Buongiorno from Italy!
So far Italy has been wonderful and the end of my time in France was so very bittersweet…
Open studio had a less than overwhelming turnout but I managed to sell a couple of my prints anyways… after packing up and saying goodbye to all of my Lacoste pals, the fam and I headed to Marseille to fly to Rome… We made it to Rome, took the train into the city and hauled our bags to the hotel… despite exhaustion we found our way to one of the infinite Italian restaurants for some wonderfully fulfilling pizza and pasta (I can’t recall if it tasted so good because it was so late, I was so hungry, it was the first authentic Italian food we tried, or it was really just that good)
Tuesday we woke up and headed over to the Vatican City for our three hour tour… our tour guide had a pretty thick Italian accent but the sights were amazing nonetheless… after that we headed over to the Angry Pig for some sandwiches more sightseeing and then Fridgidarium for gelato. We wandered around the city some more before finding our way to a restaurant Megan recommended for some more delicious Italian food at a wonderful outside table with very friendly waitresses. After a long walk back to the hotel we passed out for the night.
Wednesday started with cannolis for breakfast and a walk to the colosseum (to be harassed by a bunch of solicitors) and head inside. Between the colosseum and the surrounding forum there was a ton of history and ruins to see before eventually getting hungry and stopping to eat sandwiches on the steps across the street from the Altare Della Patria. We decided to check out the views from the top and enjoy all of the roman sights from above. Next stop was the Spanish steps and a beautiful view of the sunset from the church at the top. From there we spotted a terrace wine bar and decided to stop and rest our feet with some drinks. After the sun set we walked back to the hotel to freshen up before dinner, where we sat next to a large group of Italian men who showed us how a real Italian dinner is done. I ate some of the most delicious homemade pasta and tiramisu and with full bellies we headed back to the hotel.
Thursday we rented a car and headed to Naples - we made a pit stop at Herculaneum before driving to Vesuvius to hike up to the crater. It was a little cloudy but it was still an amazing sight. We hiked back down and made the treacherous drive through downtown Naples…. I wouldn’t recommend any sort of transportation here besides walking, and even that is quite frightening because of all of the motorcycles, cars, and whatever else can zoom around the tiny streets that have complete disregard for their surroundings.
After making it to the airbnb we were spending the night in, we were all quite hungry and went out to find dinner despite it only being 5:30… without a plan and no real idea of where we were going we struggled to find anything that would be open before 7:00… we then walked back to the airbnb, sat around researching pizzerias until finally settling on one, getting directions, and hoping for the best.
We made it there with few complications, ate some delicious authentic Naples pizzas, found a place nearby to get dessert (like we need any at this point) and had some wonderful gelato before heading back to go to bed.
Friday was another slow morning, my dad went out to find some Naples breakfast snacks and we ate those in our airbnb before packing up and getting ready to go. We walked out to visit castle dell’ovo and stopped to get more pizza before getting back in the car to head to Pompeii. We spent about two and a half hours walking around the ruins of Pompeii until it started to get dark and the alarm sounded to tell us it was time to go… after an hour drive (to go 15 miles) in the rain we made it to the hotel in Sorrento, walked around around a bit, grabbed some dinner and headed back to go to bed…
We still have another week here and I think I’ve eaten enough bread/cheese/pizza/etc for a lifetime, but it’s not over yet…!
The Europe adventures continue….
Going into our final week here in Lacoste, I was much less stressed than many of my colleagues. This past weekend I finished essentially all of my work, and had gotten a full night’s sleep every night (unlike many). Monday involved a few final critiques, and some rest due to my newly formed cold… Tuesday included final art history presentations, printing some pictures for myself (not for class), and helping out my roommate with her final prints. Wednesday was a rough day for many here at the SCAD Lacoste campus. My first class at 9:00am began with a lot of silent tears and everyone trying to hold it together as we tried to push through framing our work and anything else we had left to do for open studio. I had little to do to keep my mind off of everything going on, but I managed to sit down with one of the coordinators here to talk about so many different things… frustrations, confusions, things that seem so wrong but no one has any idea how to fix… While we didn’t really come to any conclusions or solutions, having someone here to talk to was really helpful. Thursday we picked ourselves up, started hanging work for the show, and got ready for the (hopefully) hundreds of people to arrive in Lacoste for the Open Studio Exhibition.
Today my parents arrive and it is the third to last day I will spend here in this quaint village on the hill… I will miss it greatly, but my time here has been the most wonderful learning experience. So here’s to a kick ass exhibition and a wonderful trip to Italy before heading home.